26th March 2009, Thursday
Hadn't been productive since the starting of this year...
Nothing much to do everyday, which is very stressful to me...
the thought of getting up early without nothing to do the next day resulted in me being reluctant to sleep so early...
my everyday life has been lying around the house watching tv or playing my new PS2 gun...

I am so bored that it makes me love those days where i took 4-5 subjects per semester...
although i still can remember how i cried looking at all the submission dates, at least i felt a sense of achievement when i can do all of them on time for the submissions... with quality as well... it's the time where i will be surprised with my own capability... a very positive sense of feeling...
my mom has been looking around and asking around for jobs that i never thought i wanted...
she differ my enthusiasm going to clubmed for 6-months work and now she is trying darn hard to find something she thought would be interesting for me...
the fact is, they don't "wow" me in any possible way...
reason i wanted to go clubmed is nothing to do with my future, it's just that i wanted to break away from everyone that i'm afraid that i'll start to feel annoying if i were to continue to see them everyday...
however, being there alone without any ol' friends makes it nervous for me... on top of that, my working hours wouldn't be normal... i am very afraid of maladaptation, also considering my gastric problem which is very often nowadays...
i found another called innertalk that has something to do with what i am studying but the problem is that i won't have any transport there. it's not really reachable by public transport unless it's a cab.
my mom ain't supportive of what i wanted to do...
she doesn't understand that what i wanted to do is not just stupid unrelated work that other people recommend, eg call center...
i wanted to do something relevant, i wanted to be a lecturer, or a psychologist, that's what i study for!
i wanted to gain some relevant experiences, so that down the road i can take up a master degree in a field that i am really interested in.
why la she don't understand?
what is she thinking la when i enrolled myself in this field?
is it really just to get a stupid degree?
ARRRGGGHHH!!!!!
life sucks when there's something more to add on...
there's too much in my mind now...
breaking down soon....
plus all the boredom i'm having now, it's hard not to think of anything and give myself more time for resentment...
some other random things that i did was to visit my ol' church pastor's newborn...
tada*
LUCAS FOO CHUAN YI*

He has this superman pose... and he's really serupa macam ayah!
And one fine day we went to starbucks...
There was something creepy in our drinks...

Sean trying to figure what are those things...
IT'S.....
*yer....

WORMHILLS.....

AHAHAHAHAHAHA... nothing creepy about starbucks frappucino after all....
In between the nothing-to-do-days, i had something to do also...
Eg. Shower my guinea pigs...

cusie pie after shower....
And celebrated Liew's birthday at the peak---Genting, City of entertainment...
AND GAMBLED!


Well, it was really random... but we had a great time together... it's been very long since we did all these random things together...
Then also celebrated Sean's godfather's birthday....

At the parkview restaurant in desa parkcity...

Last but not least, i flipped through my old photo albums and reminisced about the past...

