i thought...

28th September 2008, Sunday

i though everything will be settled after so long...
that i would have at least, a little more understanding of that someone...
but perhaps, it was the consequence of me, not being able to handle the conflict within my own self.

it was too long...
i no longer want to continue...
it would be better this way...

be strong and courageous girl.
i know i can do it...

help...

17th september 2008, wednesday

help...

my baby guinea pigs are not alright...

=..(

they are lsoing hair
it's freaky...
i fed them with milk
i fed them with carrot
i fed them with celery
i fed them with hay
i fed them with pellets
i fed them with multi vits
what went so wrong???

how i wish coco is still here...
she will surely know what's happening...

oh god, i really don't know what to do...
anyone know that i am in despair?
any vet knows how to treat my babies?
i feel like killing myself now...


ARGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hehe...

7th september 2008, sunday...

Before i forget this one special thing...
to avoid me banging my head to the wall and wailing...
before i start whining about how jam-packed my schedule is for this month...
to avoid people using me-forgetting-something as a threat for a BIG MEAL...
and AFTER i say I LOVE YOU to SEAN...

"I LOVE YOU SEAN!!!!!"

erhem... ok, now i can start dedicating this entry to VINCENT HO TENG SENG...

"HAPPY 22ND BIRTHDAY DEAR!!!!"

MUAHAHAHAHA!

it's a new sem...

5th september 2008, friday

it's another new sem.
another new bunch of stressful events awaiting.
it's just simply me...
being paranoid at each starting of the sem...
there's none at one point where i wouldn't whine about another new sem...
i would always tell everyone that i don't wanna go school...
regression?
exactamende!
at least, that's what i really felt deep down...

it's not that i hadn't been through anything tougher than what i will be facing...
it's just that sense of lacking in confidence that prevented my excitement about me getting into another higher level and striving one sem nearer to graduation to somehow, emerge...
i thought, i wasn't able to make it every other sem...
i thought, all the achievements were just once and for all and repetition would be explained by the term 'miracle'...

perhaps, like what everyone said, i was just merely being paranoid...
believe in myself? yadi-yadi-yaa....

well, at least it's a great start to end a not-too-good holiday...
a holiday filled with tears and the sense of losing too many things at once...
my pets...
my money...
my sense of self...

phew!
first day of schools, brain overloaded...
assignments pilled till who-knows-when i will finish them off..
it's a short sem...
god bless me...
my conscience RULES!

wee....