29th June 2oo6, Thursday
Thursday is supposed to be the last day of school, yet it's not for now... the whole month of July i need to attend classes every saturday... haih...
i got back most of my mid term results and they're kinda disappointing. well, i figured that i did not really put my effort in and do my best, so i got no one but myself to blame.
another weekend approaching, yet i am not excited about weekends nowadays as i am sick of being home alone on fridays, and being with my mother on saturdays and sundays. i just can't seems to crack a topic with my mother. even if we go out for shopping it's getting a bit boring and dull, seems so aimless. generation gap, i guess... she is no longer the one that i love to be together and talk to.
Thursday, June 29, 2006
Wednesday, June 28, 2006
27th June 2oo6, Tuesday
Today in a writing class, we were asked to write an autobiography, i.e. something about myself. Well, I finished it quite early and I decided to hand in first. Lecturer marked my essay and commented that I am very protective over my mother, the way I express my life and my background in my essay portrays my characteristic and my beliefs.
Obviously, I am a very protective person. How so? Living in a single-parented family forced me to be exposed to the outside world and the cruel part of life much earlier than I realized. In fact, it has a big impact in me on how I behave and thinks. I never believe in love, that is why I am very hard to tackle (for guys, lol) and even in my family members� point of view, I am a very stubborn person. Oh Beloved daddy, Mr. Tan, you accomplished your mission in making my life (and my brother�s too.) miserable, and so you are now eligible for the award of The Most Innovative Entrepreneurship in Destroying Children�s Lives. I just love you so much that this love can make me take up a shotgun and fire straight into your skull and deep into your brain and at your last breath I�ll whisper to you �may you be happy meeting the guardian of hell...�. Hooray!!!
HUHH!!! Now it seems like the world is against me. Just had a fight with my mother about direct selling. Parents really came from the rock ages, don�t they? Sometimes they (or should I say she?) just don�t seems to understand what we (as children) do is actually for our future and also for their comfort as they aged - typical parents' characterictics. (maybe I should not generalize, maybe some parents do understand, I mean SOME�) I do seize every opportunity that lies ahead of me, to grab hold of everything and build my own future so that I will not burden her and use up all her savings and become a parasite in the family. She just doesn�t agree upon my decision. Sigh!!!
Today in a writing class, we were asked to write an autobiography, i.e. something about myself. Well, I finished it quite early and I decided to hand in first. Lecturer marked my essay and commented that I am very protective over my mother, the way I express my life and my background in my essay portrays my characteristic and my beliefs.
Obviously, I am a very protective person. How so? Living in a single-parented family forced me to be exposed to the outside world and the cruel part of life much earlier than I realized. In fact, it has a big impact in me on how I behave and thinks. I never believe in love, that is why I am very hard to tackle (for guys, lol) and even in my family members� point of view, I am a very stubborn person. Oh Beloved daddy, Mr. Tan, you accomplished your mission in making my life (and my brother�s too.) miserable, and so you are now eligible for the award of The Most Innovative Entrepreneurship in Destroying Children�s Lives. I just love you so much that this love can make me take up a shotgun and fire straight into your skull and deep into your brain and at your last breath I�ll whisper to you �may you be happy meeting the guardian of hell...�. Hooray!!!
HUHH!!! Now it seems like the world is against me. Just had a fight with my mother about direct selling. Parents really came from the rock ages, don�t they? Sometimes they (or should I say she?) just don�t seems to understand what we (as children) do is actually for our future and also for their comfort as they aged - typical parents' characterictics. (maybe I should not generalize, maybe some parents do understand, I mean SOME�) I do seize every opportunity that lies ahead of me, to grab hold of everything and build my own future so that I will not burden her and use up all her savings and become a parasite in the family. She just doesn�t agree upon my decision. Sigh!!!
Monday, June 26, 2006
A message dedicated to the fatherly-figures�
Dear Pr. Matt, Uncle Jit, Pr. Vic�
I apologize for demolishing the hope that you have placed in me. I knew I failed you, so hard. I figured that it was time to satisfy and fill up the sense of belonging and emptiness in me in the worldly manner since I can�t fulfill it with my belief. Throughout the period of me missing in action, I indulged in the world and found that there are a handful of things to pursue and treasure and explore which to me, are more tangible and easy to grasp and achieve. Yet, I began to realize further that there are a lot of things that can be done without considering the consequences and I felt confused between the teaching and understanding that was inculcated into me since young, and the understanding that the worldly people embrace. Everything seems contradicting, yet pleasurable in a sense.
There is no certain distinction between good and bad in the outside world. What they understand is how they perceive an issue. And everyone has different perceptions. The only thing that can distinguish and categorize human being�s character and attitude is merely by religion. Is that the only thing what religion does to an individual? I.e. to incorporate a set of ethics and rules into an individual and let one�s conscience lead the path of life?
Back then when I was a leader, I was suffocated by the restriction of doing things that I prefer to and trying to put on a good image in front of the young one, as I knew very well that I was just putting on a show and I am not sincere to them. I seem to be able to solve everyone�s problem, but no one attend to me when I was in the middle of nowhere struggling to get help. I realized then that I was not doing things willingly but just to fulfill my duty as a leader. I put nothing that I�d learned into practice. By then I decided that no one needs a hypocrite. Well, no one knows that I went through depression during STPM, following then I discovered that I had to go in and out of the hospital for check-ups, and bad news keep dropping by and say hello to me. As a human-centered person, I felt no love and care from any of the leaders, I felt no support at all as I waited too long for my MAG, and God was not tangible either. Hence, I decided to give up and give the world a chance.
I believe that human being at one stage will go through a process of finding own self. Where do I belong? The world? The hell? Or the heaven? Which is the right path? Ahead of me? Well, I can see a few, I mean, deceiving ones�
Pr. Matt : Rest more as you looked worn out a little. Have a great time in the Leader�s Summit.
Uncle Jit : =)
Pr. Vic: Thank you for all the messages.
Everyone else: Oh well, thanks for reading. Cheerz�
I apologize for demolishing the hope that you have placed in me. I knew I failed you, so hard. I figured that it was time to satisfy and fill up the sense of belonging and emptiness in me in the worldly manner since I can�t fulfill it with my belief. Throughout the period of me missing in action, I indulged in the world and found that there are a handful of things to pursue and treasure and explore which to me, are more tangible and easy to grasp and achieve. Yet, I began to realize further that there are a lot of things that can be done without considering the consequences and I felt confused between the teaching and understanding that was inculcated into me since young, and the understanding that the worldly people embrace. Everything seems contradicting, yet pleasurable in a sense.
There is no certain distinction between good and bad in the outside world. What they understand is how they perceive an issue. And everyone has different perceptions. The only thing that can distinguish and categorize human being�s character and attitude is merely by religion. Is that the only thing what religion does to an individual? I.e. to incorporate a set of ethics and rules into an individual and let one�s conscience lead the path of life?
Back then when I was a leader, I was suffocated by the restriction of doing things that I prefer to and trying to put on a good image in front of the young one, as I knew very well that I was just putting on a show and I am not sincere to them. I seem to be able to solve everyone�s problem, but no one attend to me when I was in the middle of nowhere struggling to get help. I realized then that I was not doing things willingly but just to fulfill my duty as a leader. I put nothing that I�d learned into practice. By then I decided that no one needs a hypocrite. Well, no one knows that I went through depression during STPM, following then I discovered that I had to go in and out of the hospital for check-ups, and bad news keep dropping by and say hello to me. As a human-centered person, I felt no love and care from any of the leaders, I felt no support at all as I waited too long for my MAG, and God was not tangible either. Hence, I decided to give up and give the world a chance.
I believe that human being at one stage will go through a process of finding own self. Where do I belong? The world? The hell? Or the heaven? Which is the right path? Ahead of me? Well, I can see a few, I mean, deceiving ones�
Pr. Matt : Rest more as you looked worn out a little. Have a great time in the Leader�s Summit.
Uncle Jit : =)
Pr. Vic: Thank you for all the messages.
Everyone else: Oh well, thanks for reading. Cheerz�
Monday...
26th June 2oo6, Monday.
evrythings seems so wrong today. nothing motivates me. everything comes against me. i can't adapt to sudden changes and that cause my mood swing this morning.
i was suppose to do a survey with a group of Malaysian Studies students. i went to my mom's office happily thinking that i could photocopy 2oo sheets of the survey paper. damn! of all the days, why did MV choose to blackout this morning???
NVM, i quickly went to college, thought that i can print out a hardcopy and pay some money to get the 200 paper out. damn! the shop was closed!
finally i was able to get everything done, hustled to the Malaysian studies class just to found out tha class was cancelled because the teacher is on mc. OMG!
and now i need t sudy fr my PR mid term. how can i keep my sanity today? @#$%^$^*
What a day!!!
evrythings seems so wrong today. nothing motivates me. everything comes against me. i can't adapt to sudden changes and that cause my mood swing this morning.
i was suppose to do a survey with a group of Malaysian Studies students. i went to my mom's office happily thinking that i could photocopy 2oo sheets of the survey paper. damn! of all the days, why did MV choose to blackout this morning???
NVM, i quickly went to college, thought that i can print out a hardcopy and pay some money to get the 200 paper out. damn! the shop was closed!
finally i was able to get everything done, hustled to the Malaysian studies class just to found out tha class was cancelled because the teacher is on mc. OMG!
and now i need t sudy fr my PR mid term. how can i keep my sanity today? @#$%^$^*
What a day!!!
StepHz TheOry...
23rd June 2oo6, Friday.
This week was a very tiring week for me, with lots of stuff to cope, e.g. exams, diet, etc� I was quite stress out on Wednesday as I was sitting for my psychology mid term test. Suddenly I can feel the pressure of being a scholarship student, i.e. to fulfill the requirement of a good student by maintaining CGPA 3.0 every semester. I really did study hard for that subject that day and well, I was happy and satisfied with the answers that I put on the test paper. Be Proud babe!
One thing that caught me during the test was the word sensory adaptation. Human beings are good in adapting a prolonged presentation of a stimulus. For instance, when we, from the dark, are exposed to light, we will be able to adapt to the brightness in about a few minutes. Aren�t we human good? Now, let me present to you, the StePhz theory of HABITUAL ADAPTATION!!! Haha.. Nothing much though, just that I thought human can actually familiarize ourselves when we�re exposed to a prolonged presentation of a certain habit. For instance, when you like to eat during TV time, it will become an instinctive action for you to grab a snack before you sit down and enjoy a show. Or if an individual is dependent on someone for transport, he/she will be reluctant to try and take public transportations; instead, one will just pick up the phone and ask for transportation. Sensory adaptation is autonomic, yet I believe that habitual adaptation can be altered by one�s determination, motivation and time. Cheerz�
This week was a very tiring week for me, with lots of stuff to cope, e.g. exams, diet, etc� I was quite stress out on Wednesday as I was sitting for my psychology mid term test. Suddenly I can feel the pressure of being a scholarship student, i.e. to fulfill the requirement of a good student by maintaining CGPA 3.0 every semester. I really did study hard for that subject that day and well, I was happy and satisfied with the answers that I put on the test paper. Be Proud babe!
One thing that caught me during the test was the word sensory adaptation. Human beings are good in adapting a prolonged presentation of a stimulus. For instance, when we, from the dark, are exposed to light, we will be able to adapt to the brightness in about a few minutes. Aren�t we human good? Now, let me present to you, the StePhz theory of HABITUAL ADAPTATION!!! Haha.. Nothing much though, just that I thought human can actually familiarize ourselves when we�re exposed to a prolonged presentation of a certain habit. For instance, when you like to eat during TV time, it will become an instinctive action for you to grab a snack before you sit down and enjoy a show. Or if an individual is dependent on someone for transport, he/she will be reluctant to try and take public transportations; instead, one will just pick up the phone and ask for transportation. Sensory adaptation is autonomic, yet I believe that habitual adaptation can be altered by one�s determination, motivation and time. Cheerz�
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23rd June 2oo6, Friday
Does God really exist? Personally, I do believe the existence of God. One theory that really stimulated me to think deeply is the theory of Existentialism. Jean Paul Sartre, who is an atheist, never believed in the existence of God till his last breath and hence, it is obvious that his theory is against what we regard as God�s Will.
Existence precedes essence. This statement challenges the basic understanding that human beings embraced, i.e. God knows why we are created and He has a will for us even before we are brought alive into this world. To Jean Paul Sartre, he strongly disagrees with this understanding. He explained that we exist beforehand, only then we know what our purpose of life is as we choose our own pathway that leads us to different stages of life. How true it is! Most of the time we decide what we want, and bear our own responsible for the consequences that occur. I do believe in the existence of God, yet it is really taxing as God is not tangible, though He is omnipresent, as what religion states, He seems so far. What sustains a person to be strong in religion is actually a group of followers who can encourage one another and have accountabilities. Try and scatter them and they�ll all be lost and discourage and they might follow the footsteps of Jean Paul Sartre.
I had been exposed to a handful of theories and I found them interesting, attention-grabbing, worthy of note, remarkable, out of ordinary and fascinating. It really promotes my thinking abilities and helps me to understand something in a more complicated manner. And I�m happy with it. Wee�.
Does God really exist? Personally, I do believe the existence of God. One theory that really stimulated me to think deeply is the theory of Existentialism. Jean Paul Sartre, who is an atheist, never believed in the existence of God till his last breath and hence, it is obvious that his theory is against what we regard as God�s Will.
Existence precedes essence. This statement challenges the basic understanding that human beings embraced, i.e. God knows why we are created and He has a will for us even before we are brought alive into this world. To Jean Paul Sartre, he strongly disagrees with this understanding. He explained that we exist beforehand, only then we know what our purpose of life is as we choose our own pathway that leads us to different stages of life. How true it is! Most of the time we decide what we want, and bear our own responsible for the consequences that occur. I do believe in the existence of God, yet it is really taxing as God is not tangible, though He is omnipresent, as what religion states, He seems so far. What sustains a person to be strong in religion is actually a group of followers who can encourage one another and have accountabilities. Try and scatter them and they�ll all be lost and discourage and they might follow the footsteps of Jean Paul Sartre.
I had been exposed to a handful of theories and I found them interesting, attention-grabbing, worthy of note, remarkable, out of ordinary and fascinating. It really promotes my thinking abilities and helps me to understand something in a more complicated manner. And I�m happy with it. Wee�.
Monday, June 19, 2006
MoOoOoOoOdy.... =)
19th June 2oo6, Monday
Let me show you guys the most ridiculuos and heart-breaking mail for the first half of the year 2oo6. (i'm sure there are more to come, probably by the same person...) Wee...
"I was at the mamak the whole night with (3 friends). I even asked them the stay back to teman me longer. If i'd get your msg i'd have went home already. I spent the past few nights composing a letter for you till early hours in the morning, plus the long working hours, i'm no superman. The last thing i was expecting was being accused.
I was good to ppl and what they did? Accuse me of stealing our own company's stock. I did them a favour by helping them shifting and resetting the entire network to have a better working environment in the storeroom and all i get was getting myself accused. Fuck. I was furious that day. That�s y I didn�t turn up for work the day after. They didn't even bother to check the bloody cctv before accusing. What do they think I am? A fucking begger? They think I didn�t have the money to buy? Shit. I HATE BEING ACCUSED. They didn�t even apologise after that. How is that fair?
I�m sorry to say, but if you were with me just now, out of anger, I�d have slapped you on the face. You know, it hurts to be accused. But it hurts deeper if it�s someone you loved and trust.
You said we�d take 2 weeks to reconsider our relationship. I really put deep thoughts into it and keep all my thoughts to myself. But now what you�re telling me now is that you�re only giving face to (someone)."
Ahaha... you all might not be able to understand but i would still like to post it up as this will become one of my reflective journal (or reflective blog... =)) for me to revise after a few years or when i am in my dying bed, so that i can get back some 'SwEeT MeMOrIeS'... Wee... (Nah~ that feller meant something to me before that, but obviously not now. I guess i need a long time to get over this furious sensation... Cheerz...)
After reading that mail i found another mail which is quite interesting, so i decided to post it up too for all my blog-readers to enjoy... (Well, it's just the matter of copy-and-paste though... haha...)
"There was a study done where a control group of 100 people were divided into two. 50 people watched a very funny, tears-of laughter type movie. 50 watched a very sad and tears of compassion type movie. At the end of the sessions researchers collected the "happy tears" and the "sad tears" with eye droppers. They found that "happy tears" are made up of brine...salt water and not a great deal else. However the "sad tears" were found to contain the very same chemicals and enzymes that are found in tumors, ulcers and other such lumps and bumps and sicknesses through out the body. This test concluded that the body, when crying in sadness etc is literally flushing out all of the toxic-chemicals that accumulate and are a part of the sadness /heart ache experience. Therefore if one holds back those tears, those toxic-waters will find somewhere else to deposit themselves..... and prolonged lack-of-crying-release will guarantee that the body will accumulate a huge amount of internal pollution and toxicity that should have been released through the tears........is it any wonder that the eyes sting so much when we hold back our tears?"
Yupz... So don't ever hold back your tears or else it'll intoxicate yourself. And it's not a good thing. Be like me, cry whenever i want to... Cry like the whole world is tearing apart, and laugh like the hell doesn't exist. Cheerz...
Oh ya, let me show you some adorable baby and handsome guy photos. I love them all...
Let me show you guys the most ridiculuos and heart-breaking mail for the first half of the year 2oo6. (i'm sure there are more to come, probably by the same person...) Wee...
"I was at the mamak the whole night with (3 friends). I even asked them the stay back to teman me longer. If i'd get your msg i'd have went home already. I spent the past few nights composing a letter for you till early hours in the morning, plus the long working hours, i'm no superman. The last thing i was expecting was being accused.
I was good to ppl and what they did? Accuse me of stealing our own company's stock. I did them a favour by helping them shifting and resetting the entire network to have a better working environment in the storeroom and all i get was getting myself accused. Fuck. I was furious that day. That�s y I didn�t turn up for work the day after. They didn't even bother to check the bloody cctv before accusing. What do they think I am? A fucking begger? They think I didn�t have the money to buy? Shit. I HATE BEING ACCUSED. They didn�t even apologise after that. How is that fair?
I�m sorry to say, but if you were with me just now, out of anger, I�d have slapped you on the face. You know, it hurts to be accused. But it hurts deeper if it�s someone you loved and trust.
You said we�d take 2 weeks to reconsider our relationship. I really put deep thoughts into it and keep all my thoughts to myself. But now what you�re telling me now is that you�re only giving face to (someone)."
Ahaha... you all might not be able to understand but i would still like to post it up as this will become one of my reflective journal (or reflective blog... =)) for me to revise after a few years or when i am in my dying bed, so that i can get back some 'SwEeT MeMOrIeS'... Wee... (Nah~ that feller meant something to me before that, but obviously not now. I guess i need a long time to get over this furious sensation... Cheerz...)
After reading that mail i found another mail which is quite interesting, so i decided to post it up too for all my blog-readers to enjoy... (Well, it's just the matter of copy-and-paste though... haha...)
"There was a study done where a control group of 100 people were divided into two. 50 people watched a very funny, tears-of laughter type movie. 50 watched a very sad and tears of compassion type movie. At the end of the sessions researchers collected the "happy tears" and the "sad tears" with eye droppers. They found that "happy tears" are made up of brine...salt water and not a great deal else. However the "sad tears" were found to contain the very same chemicals and enzymes that are found in tumors, ulcers and other such lumps and bumps and sicknesses through out the body. This test concluded that the body, when crying in sadness etc is literally flushing out all of the toxic-chemicals that accumulate and are a part of the sadness /heart ache experience. Therefore if one holds back those tears, those toxic-waters will find somewhere else to deposit themselves..... and prolonged lack-of-crying-release will guarantee that the body will accumulate a huge amount of internal pollution and toxicity that should have been released through the tears........is it any wonder that the eyes sting so much when we hold back our tears?"
Yupz... So don't ever hold back your tears or else it'll intoxicate yourself. And it's not a good thing. Be like me, cry whenever i want to... Cry like the whole world is tearing apart, and laugh like the hell doesn't exist. Cheerz...
Oh ya, let me show you some adorable baby and handsome guy photos. I love them all...
The Art of Misunderstanding... Wee....
17th June 2oo6, Saturday
I just woke up from a terrible nap. Nopz. I did not dreamt of something horrifying, it�s just that throughout my whole nap, I was troubled by my own thoughts.
Why on earth are there so many misunderstandings between human beings? We have the revolutionize communication technologies, ie phones, internet communications, the third generation technology, and etc. And human beings are created in such a way that we can interpret data and information using the brain. Yet, I guess we violated the purpose of all these and take things for granted and hence, contributes to misunderstandings and conveying wrong information between human beings � which are said to be the wisest of all living creature, and yet sometimes a pig might just have wisdom bigger than us.
What can create misunderstandings? Arguments? Unforgiveness? Love? Hatred? The lack of ability for the brain to interpret and form a logical answer to a question? Precisely everything can lead to misunderstanding. I am too tired and not interested in understanding �the art of miscommunication and misunderstanding�. I was hurt by the �bad compliments� from a person that I thought should understands me a little more than others do. I felt disgusted by the way someone handles problems by using the power of the blissful words to achieve his/her own goals. Well, I guess this is the human nature, that when something doesn�t go our way, we tend to do whatever that can alter the situation irregardless of what or how it would hurt someone either directly or indirectly. Consequently, I learned to be strong and shield my inner self from unnecessary cuts and wounds. Also I learned to go according to my conscience as I know that my conscience is guided by The One Above and it�ll not lead me to anywhere evil or harmful.
Oh well, I can now tell the world that I am officially single and available� WEEE��
I just woke up from a terrible nap. Nopz. I did not dreamt of something horrifying, it�s just that throughout my whole nap, I was troubled by my own thoughts.
Why on earth are there so many misunderstandings between human beings? We have the revolutionize communication technologies, ie phones, internet communications, the third generation technology, and etc. And human beings are created in such a way that we can interpret data and information using the brain. Yet, I guess we violated the purpose of all these and take things for granted and hence, contributes to misunderstandings and conveying wrong information between human beings � which are said to be the wisest of all living creature, and yet sometimes a pig might just have wisdom bigger than us.
What can create misunderstandings? Arguments? Unforgiveness? Love? Hatred? The lack of ability for the brain to interpret and form a logical answer to a question? Precisely everything can lead to misunderstanding. I am too tired and not interested in understanding �the art of miscommunication and misunderstanding�. I was hurt by the �bad compliments� from a person that I thought should understands me a little more than others do. I felt disgusted by the way someone handles problems by using the power of the blissful words to achieve his/her own goals. Well, I guess this is the human nature, that when something doesn�t go our way, we tend to do whatever that can alter the situation irregardless of what or how it would hurt someone either directly or indirectly. Consequently, I learned to be strong and shield my inner self from unnecessary cuts and wounds. Also I learned to go according to my conscience as I know that my conscience is guided by The One Above and it�ll not lead me to anywhere evil or harmful.
Oh well, I can now tell the world that I am officially single and available� WEEE��
Thursday, June 15, 2006
Thoughts of theeeeeeeee DAY - Thursday, YIPPEE!
15th June 2oo6
Wee... Just finished my study skills mid term test. I did not study hard though, just flipped through the notes and enjoyed my break time, had lunch in cafeteria and accompanied my friend to buy a small bithday present for her boyfriend... (uh, so sweet, though small, it's the thought that counts. remember? the Kant's theory of Deontological ethics???) The test was hard as it triggers my memory (though we got the whole of the brain to store info, i can't figure why we can just occupy 1% of it and the fact that i am just so forgetful?) and thinking skills as i need to constantly reflect what was the lectures about and trying hard recalling some of the facts and theories and points... Well, i am not a student who do reflection after classes, i do not enjoy writing journals which are meant to be read by somebody else in order to get marks that contributes to my final results of the sem, i am not used to applying metacognition during my reflection process either. i just love to have an easy-go-lucky life without much complication in thoughts and action as well..
I just read through some of my collge mates' blogs. man! they're good in everything, ie knowlegeable, intellectual, and they're even good in expressing themselves. i guess i need to read more material, click with them and get some insights from them. i have never encountered with anyone similar to them in my whole school life, ie kindergarden, primary and high school. hence, it can be concluded that people educated from abroad are more exposed to independent learning and the systems really do prepare them for intellectual challenges in the future. Way to go pals!!!
a piece of advice for those who can't get into local universities:-
Get your butt into college where you'll be exposed to different learning environment and different learning style and culture from different kinds of people from different countries. mix around with them as they're really different from the normal students we see in Malaysia... (haha. though i know the practice here is to click with the 'oh!-i-know-you-and-you-are-from-the-same-school-previously friends). ROCK ON!
Wee... Just finished my study skills mid term test. I did not study hard though, just flipped through the notes and enjoyed my break time, had lunch in cafeteria and accompanied my friend to buy a small bithday present for her boyfriend... (uh, so sweet, though small, it's the thought that counts. remember? the Kant's theory of Deontological ethics???) The test was hard as it triggers my memory (though we got the whole of the brain to store info, i can't figure why we can just occupy 1% of it and the fact that i am just so forgetful?) and thinking skills as i need to constantly reflect what was the lectures about and trying hard recalling some of the facts and theories and points... Well, i am not a student who do reflection after classes, i do not enjoy writing journals which are meant to be read by somebody else in order to get marks that contributes to my final results of the sem, i am not used to applying metacognition during my reflection process either. i just love to have an easy-go-lucky life without much complication in thoughts and action as well..
I just read through some of my collge mates' blogs. man! they're good in everything, ie knowlegeable, intellectual, and they're even good in expressing themselves. i guess i need to read more material, click with them and get some insights from them. i have never encountered with anyone similar to them in my whole school life, ie kindergarden, primary and high school. hence, it can be concluded that people educated from abroad are more exposed to independent learning and the systems really do prepare them for intellectual challenges in the future. Way to go pals!!!
a piece of advice for those who can't get into local universities:-
Get your butt into college where you'll be exposed to different learning environment and different learning style and culture from different kinds of people from different countries. mix around with them as they're really different from the normal students we see in Malaysia... (haha. though i know the practice here is to click with the 'oh!-i-know-you-and-you-are-from-the-same-school-previously friends). ROCK ON!
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
RouTiNe...
14th June 2oo6, Wednesday
Just finished my work. (as a scholarship student, i need to work for 65hours for a semester, 65hrs X 9sem = 585hrs for the whole degree course... haih... life is tough, people offers you something, somehow or rather they'll get back somthing from you... Yet.. i am happy, as i don't need to think about my financial problem, at least for 3 years...)
I had curry mee just now. don't know why after that i am now having toothache. Kinda frustrating. Before that we hung out at the English lounge, made it our territory, had kevin's kind of music and wasted whole day chit-chating, thankx to our PR teacher, who last minute decided that something SOS occurs and cancelled the morning class. We mingled aroung the hall and did nothing productive, yet we are having fun and good laugh. Wee... tonight got pasar malam, and i am not going cause everyone is not free...
Well, later in th evening i don't think i want to explore anymore as i am not feeling very well, better be safe than sorry. (HUH? sounded like old folk.) I want to head home and have a good rest, might skip dinner as well...
OH SHARKS! tomorrow got mid term exams, study study study...
Just finished my work. (as a scholarship student, i need to work for 65hours for a semester, 65hrs X 9sem = 585hrs for the whole degree course... haih... life is tough, people offers you something, somehow or rather they'll get back somthing from you... Yet.. i am happy, as i don't need to think about my financial problem, at least for 3 years...)
I had curry mee just now. don't know why after that i am now having toothache. Kinda frustrating. Before that we hung out at the English lounge, made it our territory, had kevin's kind of music and wasted whole day chit-chating, thankx to our PR teacher, who last minute decided that something SOS occurs and cancelled the morning class. We mingled aroung the hall and did nothing productive, yet we are having fun and good laugh. Wee... tonight got pasar malam, and i am not going cause everyone is not free...
Well, later in th evening i don't think i want to explore anymore as i am not feeling very well, better be safe than sorry. (HUH? sounded like old folk.) I want to head home and have a good rest, might skip dinner as well...
OH SHARKS! tomorrow got mid term exams, study study study...
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
Phew... i just had the fright of my life. I LOST MY PARKING TICKET!!! Do you know what is the consequences? Well, i have to pay rm20 for the stupid silver and dull orangie parking ticket (mid valley's). I don't mind paying for that though. The worst thing is that if my mother knows that i lost the ticket, she'll nag nag nag and yupz... it'll be never ending, even after a few years, she'll still remember this incident and indirectly relate to other topic. (you know how moms enter into the realm of 'nagginess'? haha...)
today i had 2 tests, expository writing and moral. They are tough questions. well, for the first time i felt challenged by the multiple-choice-questions. They really made your mind going on and on thinking about the best answers. The answers seems to be the same, yet don't be easily tricked! They're tough!!!
Wee... tomorrow is wednesday again, i am sure that i am getting lost tomorrow, as i am determine in finding the entrance which will lead me to the bus station. hence, i am going to exit from the misleading entrance once i stepped put of the train and begin my journey of adventure, again... Don't fred, my friends, you can keep your hp on as i am not going to ask for help anymore this time. I want to find my way out on my own. Stay tune for greater stories... =)
Wee... This is my mother-and-daughter-sticker-photo. you can take your own sweet time to admire. (haha... perasan. btw, my mom looked young, doesn't she?)
today i had 2 tests, expository writing and moral. They are tough questions. well, for the first time i felt challenged by the multiple-choice-questions. They really made your mind going on and on thinking about the best answers. The answers seems to be the same, yet don't be easily tricked! They're tough!!!
Wee... tomorrow is wednesday again, i am sure that i am getting lost tomorrow, as i am determine in finding the entrance which will lead me to the bus station. hence, i am going to exit from the misleading entrance once i stepped put of the train and begin my journey of adventure, again... Don't fred, my friends, you can keep your hp on as i am not going to ask for help anymore this time. I want to find my way out on my own. Stay tune for greater stories... =)
Wee... This is my mother-and-daughter-sticker-photo. you can take your own sweet time to admire. (haha... perasan. btw, my mom looked young, doesn't she?)
Monday, June 12, 2006
WiSdoM...
11th June 2oo6, Sunday
Sunday again, just a blink of an eye, it�s Sunday. I just finished baking a cake, which I am not sure whether I have put the right ingredients or not. Ops� I just had a bath and am now prepared to conquer the kids. Yupz� There are a bunch of restless kids in the tuition home waiting for me. Wee� I got them a handful of sweets today and I am going to bribe them so that they�ll obey me. Wahaha�
Yesterday was a day of shopping for me and my mother. We took sticker photos and well, you got it, we looked fabulous. A mother and daughter sticker photo. I�ll try and scan it and upload it to my blog so that you all can admire. (haha� perasan le...). We had lunch at 2pm in fish & co. (the fish and chips is really nice.) and at 4pm, the both of us went to Dome Café for a cup of coffee and a slice of cheese cake. (Wee�. It�s a day out and we decided to give ourselves a treat.) I bought a Padini bag and I am going to show it off tomorrow in my college� (haha� perasan case again le�) We bought inner wears also. Ops� =)
We were very tired and decided to head home by 5pm as my mother had to go for a house-warming party nearby our house. We had a short but good rest at home before proceeding to our plans for the night. Haha.
At night I went out with a bunch of friends again and this time I was very tired and was thinking of going back home after a �crab-eating-session� at a restaurant nearby my house. Oh well, they finally succeed in persuading me to go watch football matches again�
We head home by 12midnight. While a friend was sending me home, he struck me with a hard-to-decide-and-answer-question. I was not prepared for that question, but oh well, somehow or rather I need to crack my head, simplify my complicated thoughts and give him a wise answer. And I am happy with it. =)
Sunday again, just a blink of an eye, it�s Sunday. I just finished baking a cake, which I am not sure whether I have put the right ingredients or not. Ops� I just had a bath and am now prepared to conquer the kids. Yupz� There are a bunch of restless kids in the tuition home waiting for me. Wee� I got them a handful of sweets today and I am going to bribe them so that they�ll obey me. Wahaha�
Yesterday was a day of shopping for me and my mother. We took sticker photos and well, you got it, we looked fabulous. A mother and daughter sticker photo. I�ll try and scan it and upload it to my blog so that you all can admire. (haha� perasan le...). We had lunch at 2pm in fish & co. (the fish and chips is really nice.) and at 4pm, the both of us went to Dome Café for a cup of coffee and a slice of cheese cake. (Wee�. It�s a day out and we decided to give ourselves a treat.) I bought a Padini bag and I am going to show it off tomorrow in my college� (haha� perasan case again le�) We bought inner wears also. Ops� =)
We were very tired and decided to head home by 5pm as my mother had to go for a house-warming party nearby our house. We had a short but good rest at home before proceeding to our plans for the night. Haha.
At night I went out with a bunch of friends again and this time I was very tired and was thinking of going back home after a �crab-eating-session� at a restaurant nearby my house. Oh well, they finally succeed in persuading me to go watch football matches again�
We head home by 12midnight. While a friend was sending me home, he struck me with a hard-to-decide-and-answer-question. I was not prepared for that question, but oh well, somehow or rather I need to crack my head, simplify my complicated thoughts and give him a wise answer. And I am happy with it. =)
FoOtBaLL FeVeR
10th June 2oo6, Saturday
Wee�. Today is the first day of The World Cup and I am very excited about it. (Though I am not into football, I just felt the excitement when I read about The World Cup through the newspapers and advertisements on tv.)
I was bored till death from morning till evening as I have no class today and I am home alone the whole day, being a couch potato. I decided to end my lonesome day by going out with a bunch of friends to have a drink. Everywhere was congested with people as the football fans were there at the shops sitting comfortably in front of the huge tv screen waiting for the start of the first match, German VS Costa Rica.
There I was, with a few friends, having a refreshing drink after an hour of traffic jam from my house to the shop (again, thanks to our beloved samivellu.). We played cards and I won a few rounds. (not bad huh?) By 12midnight the match started and we were given a piece of paper from the restaurant for betting. If we�re able to predict the exact score, we�ll have a complimentary fruit tarts. Happily we submitted the paper and continued our card-playing-session, with chicken chop for supper. Um� Scrumptious supper.
Wee� I won! I won! I won! The score was 4:2. And I am going to claim my fruit tarts tonight. I am so lucky.
Wee�. Today is the first day of The World Cup and I am very excited about it. (Though I am not into football, I just felt the excitement when I read about The World Cup through the newspapers and advertisements on tv.)
I was bored till death from morning till evening as I have no class today and I am home alone the whole day, being a couch potato. I decided to end my lonesome day by going out with a bunch of friends to have a drink. Everywhere was congested with people as the football fans were there at the shops sitting comfortably in front of the huge tv screen waiting for the start of the first match, German VS Costa Rica.
There I was, with a few friends, having a refreshing drink after an hour of traffic jam from my house to the shop (again, thanks to our beloved samivellu.). We played cards and I won a few rounds. (not bad huh?) By 12midnight the match started and we were given a piece of paper from the restaurant for betting. If we�re able to predict the exact score, we�ll have a complimentary fruit tarts. Happily we submitted the paper and continued our card-playing-session, with chicken chop for supper. Um� Scrumptious supper.
Wee� I won! I won! I won! The score was 4:2. And I am going to claim my fruit tarts tonight. I am so lucky.
NiCe HaiRdO
8th June 2006, Thursday
I am very tired today, as I spent most of my time in photo taking session, with pretty girls and handsome guys. Wee�. I had a haircut too! It�s the first haircut experience for me since the last 2 years, hence I was very excited about it. Nopz� I did not go out to expensive hair salon, just from a professional team that came to my college for charity work, ie the money that they earn today they donate to a charity home. Well, I can say that it was a successful charity work by judging at the number of students who went for a haircut. Yeah� No more bad hair day as my hair is shorter (though only a bit, and I actually need to spend more time grooming before I can step out of the house.) and I can save my shampoo. Haha.
Yupz� Our gang wore the same t-shirt (each with different colors) with mini skirts today. I looked cOoL, Aple obviously looked cute and adorable with the hair band, Mei looked sexy as her skirt was sOoOoOo short, Gwen looked pretty as this was the first time we saw her in mini skirt� Stephie? Haih� She looked normal (haha� cause she always wear skirt. o wee�..), yet attractive. (happy? Haha.) But the funny thing is that everyone seems to only notice us because we were all in skirts, and not because of the t-shirt, which was suppose to be our unique-ness for today, especially guys. Guys� You�re blur! Please admit it. It�s a fact!
Haihz� Suddenly thought of assignments and in-class-task that need to be completed. I am not sure how to do some of those and my file is with Mei right now. That blur girl took my file back home. I have one task due on Monday and I have no idea how am I going to get back my file as all my notes and essential information are inside my file.
I am very tired today, as I spent most of my time in photo taking session, with pretty girls and handsome guys. Wee�. I had a haircut too! It�s the first haircut experience for me since the last 2 years, hence I was very excited about it. Nopz� I did not go out to expensive hair salon, just from a professional team that came to my college for charity work, ie the money that they earn today they donate to a charity home. Well, I can say that it was a successful charity work by judging at the number of students who went for a haircut. Yeah� No more bad hair day as my hair is shorter (though only a bit, and I actually need to spend more time grooming before I can step out of the house.) and I can save my shampoo. Haha.
Yupz� Our gang wore the same t-shirt (each with different colors) with mini skirts today. I looked cOoL, Aple obviously looked cute and adorable with the hair band, Mei looked sexy as her skirt was sOoOoOo short, Gwen looked pretty as this was the first time we saw her in mini skirt� Stephie? Haih� She looked normal (haha� cause she always wear skirt. o wee�..), yet attractive. (happy? Haha.) But the funny thing is that everyone seems to only notice us because we were all in skirts, and not because of the t-shirt, which was suppose to be our unique-ness for today, especially guys. Guys� You�re blur! Please admit it. It�s a fact!
Haihz� Suddenly thought of assignments and in-class-task that need to be completed. I am not sure how to do some of those and my file is with Mei right now. That blur girl took my file back home. I have one task due on Monday and I have no idea how am I going to get back my file as all my notes and essential information are inside my file.
Thursday, June 08, 2006
PeoPle!!
YupZ� Let me introduce all of us to you.
Aple is a girl who is very responsible. Whenever she is given a duty or an assignment she�ll do a lot of research and stuff in order to present the best of the best. She likes to talk a lot and she is able to convey messages efficiently.
Mei has antennas and she receives the latest news and gossips that circulate the class and sometimes even the college. She is GoOd�
Gwen is the most lady-liked in our gang. She is not as jerky as anyone of us. She is a good leader too.
Stephie is lame. You know how she distress? She will go crazy and start singing songs, dancing around and making up lame jokes. She is GoOd. Well, I guess this is the way New-Zealanders distress. Yo! Come back girl� You�re in Malaysia.
Kevin is an intelligent person who loves to read a lot. Basically he can answer any questions logically and steadily. So, just feel free to throw questions at him. He is not expressive and he never laugh out loud, like haha, in front of us.
Me? Stephz� I am lame too. I will be the one accompanying StePhie to sing and dance and throwing her into the big drain. HAHAHA� I guess anyone by the name of StePhaNie somehow or rather possess the same lame-O characteristic. Agree? Haha.
Wednesday.. The Continue... =)
7th June 2oo6, Wednesday
Lost, The Sequel.
Haha. By looking at the title I bet you can predict what had happened.
YupZ� I�m lost again.
After taking a stroll at the Pasar Malam, one of my friend drove me to Mid Valley Ktm station and happily I hopped onto the train. I was very excited as today was kind of a great day for me in the college with a bunch of friend, doing lame things like taking pictures out of nowhere, posing in front of the stinky toilet, and during our psychology presentation we all had a good laugh and debating. Kev, Aple, Gwen, Mei, you all rocks! And the lamest of the lame was that we actually bought the same t-shirt and we�re going to wear it together with a skirt tomorrow. We each bought different colours and YupZ� We�re going to be the centre of attraction in our class tomorrow. (Attentions, I love it babe.) Haha, so excited. (Just got this sms from one of my funny friend, it says there: Hey girls� I just wanna let u guys know that 2mr I will be very adorable and cute. & Gwen I will bug u by saying �Gwen u see, see, see!!� so every1 be cute 2mr ya?) (Let me take a wild guess. The shirt was too small and she needs to wear a really cute outfit? Haha.) And not forgetting the big sponge cake that I bought for my breakfast tomorrow.
I reached Kepong station safe and sound. And YupZ� I took the-miserable-entrance again, which once again led me to places that I have no idea of. Yet I kept my fear as I really wanted to explore the place, though I know that it is not advisable to do so at night. If I�ve not mistaken, I already walked round the whole housing area just to find a small and tiny entrance that can lead me to a bus station. Wee�.
YupZ� At last I have no choice but to ask for help from one of my friend (love you so!) to send me home. Lucky he didn�t laugh at me, if not I�m going to cry� And while waiting for him I actually finished the sponge cake. WoW�
Real excited about tomorrow. Which bottom should I wear? Let me search through my wardrobe first. CheerZ�
Lost, The Sequel.
Haha. By looking at the title I bet you can predict what had happened.
YupZ� I�m lost again.
After taking a stroll at the Pasar Malam, one of my friend drove me to Mid Valley Ktm station and happily I hopped onto the train. I was very excited as today was kind of a great day for me in the college with a bunch of friend, doing lame things like taking pictures out of nowhere, posing in front of the stinky toilet, and during our psychology presentation we all had a good laugh and debating. Kev, Aple, Gwen, Mei, you all rocks! And the lamest of the lame was that we actually bought the same t-shirt and we�re going to wear it together with a skirt tomorrow. We each bought different colours and YupZ� We�re going to be the centre of attraction in our class tomorrow. (Attentions, I love it babe.) Haha, so excited. (Just got this sms from one of my funny friend, it says there: Hey girls� I just wanna let u guys know that 2mr I will be very adorable and cute. & Gwen I will bug u by saying �Gwen u see, see, see!!� so every1 be cute 2mr ya?) (Let me take a wild guess. The shirt was too small and she needs to wear a really cute outfit? Haha.) And not forgetting the big sponge cake that I bought for my breakfast tomorrow.
I reached Kepong station safe and sound. And YupZ� I took the-miserable-entrance again, which once again led me to places that I have no idea of. Yet I kept my fear as I really wanted to explore the place, though I know that it is not advisable to do so at night. If I�ve not mistaken, I already walked round the whole housing area just to find a small and tiny entrance that can lead me to a bus station. Wee�.
YupZ� At last I have no choice but to ask for help from one of my friend (love you so!) to send me home. Lucky he didn�t laugh at me, if not I�m going to cry� And while waiting for him I actually finished the sponge cake. WoW�
Real excited about tomorrow. Which bottom should I wear? Let me search through my wardrobe first. CheerZ�
Wednesday, June 07, 2006
Dilemma..
i need opinions, 'blog-readers'!!
there is this promotion going on where you need to apply a card and get some discounts next time when you book for hotel rooms in any part of M'sia, provided the hotels are in the list.
actually it covers most of m'sia and the main catch is the palace of the golden horses, where normal price for a normal room costs rm700++, and now with the card u can stay there for only rm200++. (it's not a bad idea to just stay in there for 1 night and enjoy the embience and environment of a many-stars-hotel...) isn't that attractive?
moreover you can actually use the card for discounts for food and beverages in the hotels. so anytime i can just pop in and have a meal there even if i'm not staying there.
but the 'not-so-interesting-part' is where you have to pay rm250 for the-donno-what-fee.
and i've actually applied for the thing and given rm10 deposit.
now my question for all of you is that should i really pay rm250 to apply the card and use it like nobody's business? or should i just waste away the rm10 deposit and save up rm240?
i seldom go for holidays as it's not a trend in my family to have a trip once a year. but if i get this card it motivates me to actually motivate my mom to organize and bring us go somewhere. but then we need to save and spend a sum of money every year. but it's a good thing to do together as a family, isn't it so? and if i don't fully utilize the card i will only be wasting my money right?
HOW???????
there is this promotion going on where you need to apply a card and get some discounts next time when you book for hotel rooms in any part of M'sia, provided the hotels are in the list.
actually it covers most of m'sia and the main catch is the palace of the golden horses, where normal price for a normal room costs rm700++, and now with the card u can stay there for only rm200++. (it's not a bad idea to just stay in there for 1 night and enjoy the embience and environment of a many-stars-hotel...) isn't that attractive?
moreover you can actually use the card for discounts for food and beverages in the hotels. so anytime i can just pop in and have a meal there even if i'm not staying there.
but the 'not-so-interesting-part' is where you have to pay rm250 for the-donno-what-fee.
and i've actually applied for the thing and given rm10 deposit.
now my question for all of you is that should i really pay rm250 to apply the card and use it like nobody's business? or should i just waste away the rm10 deposit and save up rm240?
i seldom go for holidays as it's not a trend in my family to have a trip once a year. but if i get this card it motivates me to actually motivate my mom to organize and bring us go somewhere. but then we need to save and spend a sum of money every year. but it's a good thing to do together as a family, isn't it so? and if i don't fully utilize the card i will only be wasting my money right?
HOW???????
Wednesday...
7th June 2oo6, Wednesday
Haih... Everyday is an exciting and freaky day for me, especially on Wednesdays. It's 12noon now, and yupz, i just reached my beloved college, and i missed my morning class. and you know what? while i am typing this thingy, my classmate, who just came out of the class told me that today is the POP-QUIZ day for that subject. So, to simplify eveything, i've missed the quiz that contributes marks towards my final exams results. and as a scholarship student, if i failed to maintain my cgpa 3.0, i am doomed... weee.....
Let's come back to my adventurous story of the day. I followed my brother's car this morning, and on his way to work he passed by the Kelana Jaya LRT station, which i thought can bring me safely to my Bdr Tasik Selatan station. (Hey! i'm not stupid ok, it's just that i haven't discover that Putra LRT and Star LRT are 2 different thing.) I stood in front of the ticketing machine only to realize that the train doesn't pass by Bdr Tasik Selatan. I started to panic as it was already 10.40am and my class will be starting at 11am. (i actualy came out of the house at 9am, but thanks to Samivellu, my place is damn congested.) I sms-ed my friend and she told me that i need to go to Masjid Jamek station then change to Star LRT then only i can reach my destination. Wee....
Luckily LRTs are much more convenient and efficient than KTMs. I managed to reach Bdr Tasik Selatan and hop onto the shuttle bus and *tada*, reached my beloved college. (although there were some hiccups along the way, but Yupz.. i am here!) You know what? It costs me rm5 for the whole ride from my house to my college, petrol excluded. Haih... what a wonderful day...
So... stay tuned, as i will be having part 2 of my adventurous day. (remember? i still have to go home after my class ends tonight... Wee...)
Haih... Everyday is an exciting and freaky day for me, especially on Wednesdays. It's 12noon now, and yupz, i just reached my beloved college, and i missed my morning class. and you know what? while i am typing this thingy, my classmate, who just came out of the class told me that today is the POP-QUIZ day for that subject. So, to simplify eveything, i've missed the quiz that contributes marks towards my final exams results. and as a scholarship student, if i failed to maintain my cgpa 3.0, i am doomed... weee.....
Let's come back to my adventurous story of the day. I followed my brother's car this morning, and on his way to work he passed by the Kelana Jaya LRT station, which i thought can bring me safely to my Bdr Tasik Selatan station. (Hey! i'm not stupid ok, it's just that i haven't discover that Putra LRT and Star LRT are 2 different thing.) I stood in front of the ticketing machine only to realize that the train doesn't pass by Bdr Tasik Selatan. I started to panic as it was already 10.40am and my class will be starting at 11am. (i actualy came out of the house at 9am, but thanks to Samivellu, my place is damn congested.) I sms-ed my friend and she told me that i need to go to Masjid Jamek station then change to Star LRT then only i can reach my destination. Wee....
Luckily LRTs are much more convenient and efficient than KTMs. I managed to reach Bdr Tasik Selatan and hop onto the shuttle bus and *tada*, reached my beloved college. (although there were some hiccups along the way, but Yupz.. i am here!) You know what? It costs me rm5 for the whole ride from my house to my college, petrol excluded. Haih... what a wonderful day...
So... stay tuned, as i will be having part 2 of my adventurous day. (remember? i still have to go home after my class ends tonight... Wee...)
Tuesday, June 06, 2006
Dumb-Py Dumb-Py Dumb
Ops.. Now only i found out that i have actually written some of the dates wrongly. hahaz. i've changed it d.
Dumb-Py Dumb-Py Dumb
Wee...Uh..Uh....Uh.....Uh........Wao... (try to be a little teenee weenee imaginative. Remember? The Goffy's laughter? Er-Huk.)
Dumb-Py Dumb-Py Dumb
Wee...Uh..Uh....Uh.....Uh........Wao... (try to be a little teenee weenee imaginative. Remember? The Goffy's laughter? Er-Huk.)
Monday Blues...
5th June 2oo6, Monday
Mondays are always dreadful days for me as it indicates the starting of another week. Basically nothing motivates me on Mondays. A lot of my friends asked me why do I looked so different and dresses up so nicely on Mondays. Well, it�s simple, I just need some kind of motivation. Haha. I really do get my motivation!
Haha� Something very funny about our discussion. We�ve decided to do a skit for one of the assignments and we managed to rehearse only a bit, but it was good enough as there are jokers in my group. Yoz� You all rocks man!!!! Beat-master, MaKe SoMe SoUnD, I CaN�T HeAr YoU?!!! Yo RapPer! Yo NaRraTor! AnYbOdY In ThE HoUsE? ThE bIg bOsS hErE iS sPeAkInG YO!!! (Pardon my �siao-ness�.) =}
It�s only 9.30pm and I felt very tired. Yet I don�t feel like going to bed so early. I felt lonesome now as my mother has already fallen asleep and my brother is still not home yet. I feel like sms-ing but I need to save some credits for rainy days as I have lots of opportunities to continue exploring and get lost or being stranded somewhere else. Lol. I have lots of assignments to be completed, I have tonnes of revision to do, yet I don�t feel like doing any of those as I am not in �the mood�.
I have a mixed feeling now. I do not know what I wanted to do. I�ve wasted most of my time in deep thoughts, yet I can�t seem to get any answer for my every question. Sometimes isn�t it hard to make a certain decision? When you know exactly what you wanted to do, people will point fingers at you telling you how selfish you are. But when you wanted to make a decision that pleases others, you are just being too hard on yourself. I admired those who don�t care how the heck people think about them, they are free to be themselves and do their own things. Yet, my life revolves around people, I am conscious of what others think about me. And perhaps that makes my life seems miserable.
Yupz� I�m facing a complicated problem now. A problem that no one can help me solve unless I step out and enclose to everyone what I want. I just need some kind of encouragement, and I�m glad to have my buddies to give me advises by putting themselves in my shoes. Yupz� You rocks! And a big brother who is kind enough to help me analyze and give me solution to my problem. Yupz� Love you too. College friends, you�re totally cool! Though you might not know a lot, yet wassup guys, you are all great listeners! Cheerz everyone. =)
Cheerz Stephz�. You still have a long and miserable and hard life ahead. Be strong and exceptionally courageous.
Mondays are always dreadful days for me as it indicates the starting of another week. Basically nothing motivates me on Mondays. A lot of my friends asked me why do I looked so different and dresses up so nicely on Mondays. Well, it�s simple, I just need some kind of motivation. Haha. I really do get my motivation!
Haha� Something very funny about our discussion. We�ve decided to do a skit for one of the assignments and we managed to rehearse only a bit, but it was good enough as there are jokers in my group. Yoz� You all rocks man!!!! Beat-master, MaKe SoMe SoUnD, I CaN�T HeAr YoU?!!! Yo RapPer! Yo NaRraTor! AnYbOdY In ThE HoUsE? ThE bIg bOsS hErE iS sPeAkInG YO!!! (Pardon my �siao-ness�.) =}
It�s only 9.30pm and I felt very tired. Yet I don�t feel like going to bed so early. I felt lonesome now as my mother has already fallen asleep and my brother is still not home yet. I feel like sms-ing but I need to save some credits for rainy days as I have lots of opportunities to continue exploring and get lost or being stranded somewhere else. Lol. I have lots of assignments to be completed, I have tonnes of revision to do, yet I don�t feel like doing any of those as I am not in �the mood�.
I have a mixed feeling now. I do not know what I wanted to do. I�ve wasted most of my time in deep thoughts, yet I can�t seem to get any answer for my every question. Sometimes isn�t it hard to make a certain decision? When you know exactly what you wanted to do, people will point fingers at you telling you how selfish you are. But when you wanted to make a decision that pleases others, you are just being too hard on yourself. I admired those who don�t care how the heck people think about them, they are free to be themselves and do their own things. Yet, my life revolves around people, I am conscious of what others think about me. And perhaps that makes my life seems miserable.
Yupz� I�m facing a complicated problem now. A problem that no one can help me solve unless I step out and enclose to everyone what I want. I just need some kind of encouragement, and I�m glad to have my buddies to give me advises by putting themselves in my shoes. Yupz� You rocks! And a big brother who is kind enough to help me analyze and give me solution to my problem. Yupz� Love you too. College friends, you�re totally cool! Though you might not know a lot, yet wassup guys, you are all great listeners! Cheerz everyone. =)
Cheerz Stephz�. You still have a long and miserable and hard life ahead. Be strong and exceptionally courageous.
Monday, June 05, 2006
A fascinating Night
4th June 2oo6, Sunday.
It�s already 11am. Just woke up and took a bath. Was thinking of transferring some photos from my computer to my laptop, but it seems like my computer is infected with virus, need to ask my brother to format the com.
Yesterday night a few of my friends and I went to Bukit Jalil for �The Asia Lantern Carnival 2oo6�. It was a fascinating experience. It�s indescribable with words!!! (but it�s kind of crowded as everyone is as fascinated about this event as me. Lol) The displays are all hand-made, and they�re all huge� The nicest ones is the dragon, where it is made of plates and Chinese tea cups. If anyone of you are interested you still have the opportunity to go, the event is until 30th July. (do remember to bring camera, you�ll regret if you don�t. lol)
After an hour or so, we decided that it�s time for a drink, so we explored into Pandan Indah and managed to find a nice place to quench our thirst. That place was cool as it has more than a 100 kinds of beverages. We played cards and well, it was my lucky day. =)
On our way home we felt hungry, so we went to Jalan Ipoh for dim sum. Can you believe this? In the middle of the night, around 2am, there�re still people selling dim sum! Haha, well, maybe I am just a kampung girl who seldom comes out in the middle of the night� We had a scrumptious supper (lol) and decided that it�s time to head home and end the day. By the time I reached home it�s already about 3pm. I was so tired and I just go straight to bed (without the thought of having a bath first, ops�that�s why the first thing I do when I got up is to take a shower.) cheerz.
It�s already 11am. Just woke up and took a bath. Was thinking of transferring some photos from my computer to my laptop, but it seems like my computer is infected with virus, need to ask my brother to format the com.
Yesterday night a few of my friends and I went to Bukit Jalil for �The Asia Lantern Carnival 2oo6�. It was a fascinating experience. It�s indescribable with words!!! (but it�s kind of crowded as everyone is as fascinated about this event as me. Lol) The displays are all hand-made, and they�re all huge� The nicest ones is the dragon, where it is made of plates and Chinese tea cups. If anyone of you are interested you still have the opportunity to go, the event is until 30th July. (do remember to bring camera, you�ll regret if you don�t. lol)
After an hour or so, we decided that it�s time for a drink, so we explored into Pandan Indah and managed to find a nice place to quench our thirst. That place was cool as it has more than a 100 kinds of beverages. We played cards and well, it was my lucky day. =)
On our way home we felt hungry, so we went to Jalan Ipoh for dim sum. Can you believe this? In the middle of the night, around 2am, there�re still people selling dim sum! Haha, well, maybe I am just a kampung girl who seldom comes out in the middle of the night� We had a scrumptious supper (lol) and decided that it�s time to head home and end the day. By the time I reached home it�s already about 3pm. I was so tired and I just go straight to bed (without the thought of having a bath first, ops�that�s why the first thing I do when I got up is to take a shower.) cheerz.
Defining Love.
2nd June 2oo6, Friday
Tired. Real tired of saying the word �NO� over and over again.
Things will never work out between us both.
How can I make someone understand this statement?
Well, how to define love?
What is love?
Love, to me, is tolerance, patience. Love does not criticize, love is satisfying, love is security, love is unconditional, love is understanding between the both, love is freedom, and everything good. Love is an emotion that does not results to extreme indulgence, nor extreme resistance.
Yet, it is sad to say, that I haven�t found anything near these�
Tired. Real tired of saying the word �NO� over and over again.
Things will never work out between us both.
How can I make someone understand this statement?
Well, how to define love?
What is love?
Love, to me, is tolerance, patience. Love does not criticize, love is satisfying, love is security, love is unconditional, love is understanding between the both, love is freedom, and everything good. Love is an emotion that does not results to extreme indulgence, nor extreme resistance.
Yet, it is sad to say, that I haven�t found anything near these�
Thoughts of the DAY...
1st June 2oo6, Thursday
Another long day in college. I was actually very tired and felt hungry easily today as I walked a lot inside my college, from one end to another. I guess I burned more fats and used more energy today, and that contributes to my unusual hungriness. Lol.
I just came back from a birthday party. One of my friends turns 21, a few days after today. She held an early celebration. (Was wondering whether I will be having a bulk celebration too this year� I love to have one�). How time flies. We are all growing older each passing day. I reminisce about my younger days, where I used to spend time with my group of friends. Well, we are all grown-ups now, and we all have different directions and aims. Everyone is going somewhere else to pursue their dreams, and that just simply means that we are not going to stick together like we used to. All the ups and downs that we�ve gone through will now just become a piece of memory, and will only be taken out and revise when we need some kind of encouragement and motivation. I really wished that I will stop growing by now. Treasure the moments, friends�
Listening to Jay�s song now, the one and only that I currently loved the most � �feng�. I just love the rhythm and the way he sang it. You might consider listening to this song (highly recommended by The Stephz�). Well, being a reflective person, I like to think a lot of things, be it relevant or irrelevant to the time, my identity or my emotion at that present moment. Interested in knowing my thoughts now? I am actually trying to figure out an answer to my �uselessness�. Why am I so useless, in some sense? Being unable to pull myself through difficulties, being coward even though I might seems courageous, being dependent and most of all, having the habit of dwelling into the state of self-pitying. Some of you might not be able to understand what am I writing at this moment as I am not expressing myself in a tangible way, indeed, I am doing it in a subjective way, where it requires you to think deep sometimes (I am actually quoting this from my lecturers, they are obviously very knowledgeable and wise, in some ways. Lol).
Well, it�s time to think now friends. Answers don�t come to you straight to your face nowadays. But for now, it�s already late at night, so I decided to get a good night sleep and continue my serious thinking the day after. Cheerz.
Another long day in college. I was actually very tired and felt hungry easily today as I walked a lot inside my college, from one end to another. I guess I burned more fats and used more energy today, and that contributes to my unusual hungriness. Lol.
I just came back from a birthday party. One of my friends turns 21, a few days after today. She held an early celebration. (Was wondering whether I will be having a bulk celebration too this year� I love to have one�). How time flies. We are all growing older each passing day. I reminisce about my younger days, where I used to spend time with my group of friends. Well, we are all grown-ups now, and we all have different directions and aims. Everyone is going somewhere else to pursue their dreams, and that just simply means that we are not going to stick together like we used to. All the ups and downs that we�ve gone through will now just become a piece of memory, and will only be taken out and revise when we need some kind of encouragement and motivation. I really wished that I will stop growing by now. Treasure the moments, friends�
Listening to Jay�s song now, the one and only that I currently loved the most � �feng�. I just love the rhythm and the way he sang it. You might consider listening to this song (highly recommended by The Stephz�). Well, being a reflective person, I like to think a lot of things, be it relevant or irrelevant to the time, my identity or my emotion at that present moment. Interested in knowing my thoughts now? I am actually trying to figure out an answer to my �uselessness�. Why am I so useless, in some sense? Being unable to pull myself through difficulties, being coward even though I might seems courageous, being dependent and most of all, having the habit of dwelling into the state of self-pitying. Some of you might not be able to understand what am I writing at this moment as I am not expressing myself in a tangible way, indeed, I am doing it in a subjective way, where it requires you to think deep sometimes (I am actually quoting this from my lecturers, they are obviously very knowledgeable and wise, in some ways. Lol).
Well, it�s time to think now friends. Answers don�t come to you straight to your face nowadays. But for now, it�s already late at night, so I decided to get a good night sleep and continue my serious thinking the day after. Cheerz.
Thursday, June 01, 2006
A Spoilt Independent Day...
31st May 2006. Wednesday.
Well, I had an adventurous day today. In fact, today is my first day of being independent (if you�re close enough with me you�ll know that I always depend a lot on my ex for transportation.). Phew� Let me just run through with you what happened�
I woke up early today, 6am, being very indecisive, whether to follow my mom down to mid valley (her work place, mid valley boulevard) and take a ktm or to venture myself into buses. Due to severe laziness, I decided to try out the bus, which is a little bit complicated to me. So, I prepared myself by 8.20am, walked all the way down to the nearest bus stop and waited for the bus. The funny part is that I nearly missed the bus cause I stood at the wrong side of the road. And oh ya, I�ve missed out the part where I forgotten to take my hp out with me (I was just being forgetful.) Lol. I had a short ride, walked for 20mins to reach the ktm station, waited for the ktm for 20mins, took the train, take the shuttle bus and reach my college by 10am. (not really adventurous though). I was actually feeling proud. Haha.
Lecture, break, and everything went along quite well during the day. My college friends and I decided to take a scroll at the pasar malam. Happily we went and had lots of nice stuff, rojak, pan mee, taufu busuk (at last I have the courage to eat them, and it actually doesn�t taste that bad.), etc. after everything at around 8pm my friend sent me to ktm station and it actually took me half an hour to get on the train. I reached the kepong ktm station by 9.15pm and I decided to continue my adventurous journey back home by walking out from another entrance (the one opposite the usual entrance that I take.) I started to feel nervous when I stepped out of the entrance as I really don�t know where it leads to. It was dark, windy and spooky. I start walking and I start panicking. But I still act strong and courageous, lol. I realize that I am heading to a high way and there�s no telephone booth along the way. Fortunately I reached a fruit stall and I managed to borrow a hp from a kind-hearted man. I manage to call my ex and he managde to find me and I manage to reach home safely. I felt so relief when I actually gotten into his car. And well, that spoilt my day of independence. Haha.
Well, I had an adventurous day today. In fact, today is my first day of being independent (if you�re close enough with me you�ll know that I always depend a lot on my ex for transportation.). Phew� Let me just run through with you what happened�
I woke up early today, 6am, being very indecisive, whether to follow my mom down to mid valley (her work place, mid valley boulevard) and take a ktm or to venture myself into buses. Due to severe laziness, I decided to try out the bus, which is a little bit complicated to me. So, I prepared myself by 8.20am, walked all the way down to the nearest bus stop and waited for the bus. The funny part is that I nearly missed the bus cause I stood at the wrong side of the road. And oh ya, I�ve missed out the part where I forgotten to take my hp out with me (I was just being forgetful.) Lol. I had a short ride, walked for 20mins to reach the ktm station, waited for the ktm for 20mins, took the train, take the shuttle bus and reach my college by 10am. (not really adventurous though). I was actually feeling proud. Haha.
Lecture, break, and everything went along quite well during the day. My college friends and I decided to take a scroll at the pasar malam. Happily we went and had lots of nice stuff, rojak, pan mee, taufu busuk (at last I have the courage to eat them, and it actually doesn�t taste that bad.), etc. after everything at around 8pm my friend sent me to ktm station and it actually took me half an hour to get on the train. I reached the kepong ktm station by 9.15pm and I decided to continue my adventurous journey back home by walking out from another entrance (the one opposite the usual entrance that I take.) I started to feel nervous when I stepped out of the entrance as I really don�t know where it leads to. It was dark, windy and spooky. I start walking and I start panicking. But I still act strong and courageous, lol. I realize that I am heading to a high way and there�s no telephone booth along the way. Fortunately I reached a fruit stall and I managed to borrow a hp from a kind-hearted man. I manage to call my ex and he managde to find me and I manage to reach home safely. I felt so relief when I actually gotten into his car. And well, that spoilt my day of independence. Haha.
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