thoughts...

22nd July 2008, Tuesday

there were times where this feeling felt so real...
it was a sense of bitterness, with a pinch of heartfelt sweetness...
i guess, i was missing someone...

there are certain time frame dedicated for certain people...
not that it was planned intentionally... rather, it comes with a little suprises, even to me, myself and i.
i guess i was just so inadequate in handling my own emotions, that's why i tend to feel so overwhelmed whenever this feeling invades my thoughts...
often, i have the tendency to reach for the old memories when i am dwelling in that period of missing someone, which will very much be comforting to me... the old, yet great memories...

i've been very much missing my mentors... ppl who are real, and people who took care of me during my phase of turbulence (as mentioned by philosophers to term teenage phase). indeed, i was rebellious and during those crucial times, they were there to guide me to adhere to the norm. as time goes by, they revealed the world to me, and left me there to discover the truth within. i was outraged, i was a rebel, i was hard-to-deal-with, yet they were there, relentlessly guiding me. i am who i am, and a big part of them came from them- pr victor, pr foo, uncle jit, hock man, and all...

nonetheless, the institution which i identified with, and was very glad to be in, was the church. that was the only institution that offered me the opportunity to lead a normal and exciting life, without the constraint of my strict and typical grandmother during those days. self-esteem were given meaning through all the exposure in church. constant encouragement from then, contributed to my self-efficacy, if one may ask why i am seen as being so confident.

in search for an answer, i found everything against religion. skepticism refrained me from believing in any. yet, there must be an almighty somewhere. if wasn't for him, i wouldn't be here.

alstalabista! i've been missing pastors. i dreamt of one few days ago, and it was all sweet and good. i read a blog of another, and i knew i missed out a lot of him. well... they are just so great. 100% affirmative.

i am here....

20th July 2008, Sunday...

dear peeps! i am still here... well and alive...

it's been long since i last gave an entry. well, i had an exciting life! this entry is all about what i did throughout the sem. and i think most peeps who were close to me knew everything about it... but... you can still have something to reminisce about... haha...

this sem.... it was all really about assignments. different kinds of assignment...

there were written assignments, there were presentations, there was this assignment of organizing the whole camp from scratch with a team of vibrant coursemates (from organizing fundaraising events such as Be Psyched and Futsal to the real camp!). then there was this video clip filming and i was busy doing the editing of the whole clip. Phew! this sem is just so darn interesting!

well... this was our first fundraising activity, the Be Psyched day... this was the most worrisome of all, partly because it was the first activity ever organized by this newly grouped team... oh well... this was the one of the highlights- the human auction... and this was what we did to our beloved emcee... haha... (sorry bobby...)



yeah babe... this is the team! all in orange and yellow cause we have to support our steph liew for her student council election!! (and you won!!! woohoo!!!)



second major activity: futsal competition!
this is the winning team for the futsal competition organized! it was for fundraising and we managed to get enough funds from here. love it!



here we are almost dying at the end of the competition. yeah, when everyone was so burned out organizing and worrying about the outcome...



Well, after all the hardwork, presenting to you, THE CAMP! (with all the fun activities like flying fox, pond rafting, high rope, etc...





The steph x2 camwhoring.... *sigh*


Before we board onto the bus and go home... it was a sweet and satisfactory camp after all...


coming through... is the video clip that i mentioned above... it is in youtube, but since i am uploading it (and being so proud as an editor, haha), i thought it's a good idea to show it here too... *wink*

Part 1


Part 2


Part 3