it's a new sem...

5th september 2008, friday

it's another new sem.
another new bunch of stressful events awaiting.
it's just simply me...
being paranoid at each starting of the sem...
there's none at one point where i wouldn't whine about another new sem...
i would always tell everyone that i don't wanna go school...
regression?
exactamende!
at least, that's what i really felt deep down...

it's not that i hadn't been through anything tougher than what i will be facing...
it's just that sense of lacking in confidence that prevented my excitement about me getting into another higher level and striving one sem nearer to graduation to somehow, emerge...
i thought, i wasn't able to make it every other sem...
i thought, all the achievements were just once and for all and repetition would be explained by the term 'miracle'...

perhaps, like what everyone said, i was just merely being paranoid...
believe in myself? yadi-yadi-yaa....

well, at least it's a great start to end a not-too-good holiday...
a holiday filled with tears and the sense of losing too many things at once...
my pets...
my money...
my sense of self...

phew!
first day of schools, brain overloaded...
assignments pilled till who-knows-when i will finish them off..
it's a short sem...
god bless me...
my conscience RULES!

wee....