thoughts

20th november 2008, thursday

browsing through all the older entries in my blog made me realized that i did went through a paradigm shift...
a shift that might deemed positive to some although not necessary so...
but i believe that it doesn't matter which direction i am heading towards now...
it's the effects that counts...

i was once very rebellious...
reflecting on my own past, things seemed rather out of place...
i had trouble with my family...
and nonetheless, with my own self...
being pessimistic, i was particularly upset about my everything...
however, i should say, pessimism is the drive for me to accomplish a lot of things in my life...
it ain't all bad after all...

people got curious,
why am i doing a research on death...
i should say, it's my interest in knowing the things deemed negative...
negative stuff attracts me...
life ain't all rainbow and roses...

though i am now not as pessimistic as i was few years ago,
i am proud to say that i still see myself closer to the negative end than to the positive end...

beware...