depress

6th April 2009, Monday

for a moment...
i became so depress...

life is all about chances...
what goes around comes around is never true...
if it goes back to the person, one would say the above is always true...
if it doesn't, one would say it's luck...

sigh...
at this point of time...
i am not enjoying life...
everything is so philosophical...
no truth..
no proof...
everything is man-made...
so much excuses to so many issues...

some people are filthy rich without reasons...
some are darn poor even though hardworking...
life is all about chances...
and i don't see mine as having any chance to have a good life...
bummer...

for a second i thought...
probably death ain't so scary...
maybe death is just leaving the body...
maybe i can still see the world, it's just that living human can't see me...
i can still love them, see them, talk to them, be with them...
i don't know...
chances...

with past life regression theory, i am relieved a little...
cause maybe, just maybe... i have next life after death...
back to being a baby, with nothing to worry...
at least now, i know where i am going...

my ic...
religion: tiada
just changed...
i am a happy deist...
my mom will kill me...
chances are, she wouldn't find out...