waiting-to-go-home-thoughts

2nd October 2oo6, Monday.

it has been quite a long while from the previous me having a laptop with me (plus internet connection) and at the same time sitting down compiling what was really on my mind in words. most of the times i weren't lucky enough to have a laptop with me whenever i was in deep thoughts. i realized that i actually paused and think very frequently in a day. i was too lazy and not motivated to jot down my every thoughts onto a piece of paper. i guess if i were to do so, i wouldn't be surprise to see that 9 out of 10 are actually negative thoughts.

i just had a 'surprise-earlier-birthday-present' from my uncle. he gave me a a choice of either staying at sunway resort (2days1night) or pyramid tower (3days2nights) as a birthday present. i thought it was a joke at first. anyway,i've booked 27-29th oct, which happens to be a friday, sat and sun. although i am sure that it was some complementary coupons that someone gave it to him, yet i was still very happy that he actually remembered my birthday... now i am having another dilemma. who should i ask to go along with me? is my mother actually expecting me to take her along? should i chose her or him? or should i just go alone? or should i ask chi ling? or my buddy and her bf and vitkiz? or stephie, gwen, mei, aple u all wanna go? actually i was hoping that we can resume our 'previous-lagoon' plan. i don't mind having sest and ray they all to tag along, but i guess the room will be way too small for 10 grown ups. aiks! or or or uncle jit, pr foo wanna come? (hahaha...) herhm, i guess to minimise my STRESS, i'll spend 2 nights there alone, also a way to cut down my expenses and to relax and sleep, sleep and sleep.

talking about birthday, i am not expecting anything, after all it's not any happy ocassion. DUH~ i was brought into this world just to suffer what... i guess i shouldn't overgeneralized, there were still some happy events that happened in this wicked world. btw, i have been celebrating birthdays for 20 years, birthdays are just some ocassion to remind you that you are one step nearer to contracting some adult-prone diseases, cancers, ageing, etc... but if i were to think this way, i will no longer have any motivation and nothing to look forward to. sometimes my thoughts are just too contradicting. but well, the fact is that life is too short to be good.

just that day my former church had a carnival. my mom was assigned duty at her cg's stall and it seemed to me that she enjoyed the carnival a lot. the teh tarik contest was super funny where at the end of the tarik-ing, nothing left in the mug, all on the floor, haha. and also pr. matt was dunk by his aggresive youths into the pool of water. OMG. i was really hoping to be there, but i was not in a good mood that saturday morning, and also if i were to go, i will be having transportation problem to go to work. sunday was not a good day cause the carnival only started at 1pm. aiks!

psychology assignment was given back by mr james. i was quite pleased with my result. nopz, i am not showing off, it's just that when i reflected back on what i had gone through, i felt that everything was worth it. the first day i got my assignment paper i was like OH GOSH, an authobiography? ladida dida, it sounded way easier but you know, when you actually need to insert some theories and cite the references and search for relevant information and scratching your head till bald to figure out how to compile your life with theories and constantly minding the format and citation of the sources, everything seems... difficult! i was constantly worried and concurrently having stress while i thought of the assignments. i was not motivated to start the assignment at all. until the final week, i begun to panic. as days passed by, i had insomnia, constantly bugging sean even though it was late at night. yet i was able to come out with the assignment 3 days before the due date and i had time to check through. although i still made a lot of spelling and grammatical errors (which i don't understand why did that happen since i've check through more than 5 times, perhaps i've sent the draft instead of the final one for printing.), i am happy with mr james comments. he sounded as if he UNDERSTANDS! uh... who knows, he's a psychology lecturer. *wink*

i just got a phone call from IGB mid valley. they're needing people for the christmas promotions and events, 2-26dec. and they seriously need macho guys to help out the petite girls, u know, carrying heavy stuff, climbing the ladder, etc. so if any one of u guys interested can give me a call le, or leave msg on my board and i'll tell them. anyway, i'm in!