i don understand...

6th august 2008, wednesday...

i don't understand the existence of religion...
really, really don't understand...
never had an answer that is to a satisfactory level in regards to this issue...
and the most i dislike is when Christians who knew i was a Christian BEFORE gave me that silly face of "You silly girl" look whenever they learned that i am no longer interested in their self-proclaimed faith...
maybe cos i have brains and they don't...
cause most of them never bother to question their faith.
it's one of the utmost annoying things in the world that i've ever encountered...
if they've emerged to be able to justify their own faith without condemning others, have sufficient knowledge of other people's faith, open to crticism, and not just shun themselves and hide within their comfort zone, i would very much, give my respect to these people...

i am a deist.

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i never understand why people say someone has changed...
is there anyone on earth who never change?
that's quite peculiar...
of course everyone change!
when one gets more knowledge of everything in the world,
their schema of things will automatically change,
cause it is assumed that one will get a more thorough concept of the world when one grows...
for instance, when one was young, a chair means four-legged.
when one grows, one can identify chairs not only those with four-legged. a two-legged "thing" can be recognized as a chair either!
thus, considering all these gained knowledge through one's life experience, who then, WILL NOT CHANGE?

i changed. significantly changed!

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i don't understand why i felt so moody today...
perhaps, i knew why i felt so bad...
perhaps, it's just a defense mechanism...
to show that i am indifferent...
and doesn't want...
to understand...