just knew...

10th August 2008, Sunday...

just realized that i have to let go of all the past and move on with my life...
funny how the latter sounded so familiar, yet didn't make any impact on me, not until the recent incident... or reunion so to speak...

indeed, there was much expectation...
from the very moment the conversation started, i knew i was projecting much unfulfilled childhood expectations.
those were no longer applied when one was so grown up.

perhaps, i have to give in to the saying that nothing can be perfect if it's not of your own.
though it was a little, rather too late so to speak, i am still glad that i was able to once and for all, come back to reality.
once lost something deemed precious, there's no substitution...
perhaps, one would argue the other way round, but in my context, it doesn't apply...

it was good, that this reunion came to my senses, that i should move on with my life...
letting go ain't easy, definitely.
but i am more of an experiential learner, and regretably, i've experience one of a kind...

wee.....