UpDates...

wee.... it has been a long time i didn't get to sit down and reflect upon my past days... sitting here in the recital hall, surrounded by different genres of music (there are people practicing piano, there are people talking, and here i am with an earphone listening to some of my favourites...) =)
let's talk about my beloved mom. yesterday suddenly strucked my mine that my mom is really ageing. signs can be seen (eye bag, wrinkle, messy hair, pale lips, naggy...). she has been working hard for living, justice ain't at her side. bosses are nasty, children ain't discipline, husband ain't faithful... i guess this is what they said as sufferings. mom has been staying in office till late for quite some days. she has been quite stressed out due to the work she has to complete in the office, and also to monitor the shifting of the office.. (judging by the way she wake up at 4am as a result of worrying too much: server down, marble table chipped, coordinating the staffs, removerlists, and the bosses are so bossy and they looked like some paralyzed and retarded senior citizen to me). things has not been going too well for my mom, i guess she needed a rest. i shall bring her for a hoilday.
My conscience: OI STEPH! BETTER START SAVING! YOU HAVE BEEN TALKING A LOT AND THERE ARE NO ACTIONS TAKEN! YOU STUPID BIG SPENDER!
Steph: Ok! Ok! But i've spent all my money that was allocated for August... i have nothing to save....
My conscience: THEN WHAT THE F### ARE YOU SAYING THAT YOU WANNA BRING YOUR MOM FOR A HOLIDAY? YOU EXPECT YOUR MOM TO PAY FOR EVERYTHING HUH?
Steph: Erm... Good Idea....
My conscience: You really S#CKS LE...
=)

Now lets talk about my brother.... It's his birthday today... Koh!!! Happy birthday and I LOVE YOU... (i know it has been a long time since i last told you that, but i really mean it this time.) haha... guess what i bought for him. nop... it's not a shirt, not watch.. nothing practical... haha.. it's a set of magic cards from Toy'R us... wee.... i really really hope he likes it cause it caused my quite a sum of money. (i was actually thinking of buying a rm5 present for him cause i am broke, but at last the magic cards caught my attention and so i bought it... =)) his girlfriend went to our house yesterday to decorate his room as a surprise for him (aw... so sweet~~~). we chatted for an hour or so and i got to understand my brother more.
My conscience: YOU DUMBSHELL! YOU ARE SUPPOSE TO UNDERSTAND HIM MORE THAN THE GF, HE'S YOUR BROTHER!!!
Steph: Well, i never got to talk to him since ages ago. he will never open up to me, so i am really really grateful for Carmen that she is always there by his side. Bless her...

back to my brother... his life has been a tough ones. he never enjoys his life, his childhood. since young he was FORCE to be independent, by taking public buses to KL all by his own since STANDARD 1. OMG, i'll be crying like hell if i were him. divorce has made a great impact on him as well. daddy used to play with him a lot, talked to him and pampered him. now i just hope that he will find the light and walk his way till the end. i can have no say as we have generation gap (remember? 3 years one gap.) ahaha...

now let's talk about my uncle and family. we've been celebrating the birth of a new baby boy, Victor Wong (this name make me think of a person who WAS dear to me...). baby victor is just so cute. i was marveled looking at him, he is so tiny yet he is breathing so rapidly. he looked so fragile yet he is so strong within as he is trying hard to adapt to life outside the mother's womb. he used to be protected, and now he is exposed to all kinds of dangers (the siblings keep kacau-ing him, you know.. jealousy... haha... kids...) i just love babies soooooo much.. Baby Victor, Cheh Cheh loves you HEAPSSSS!!!! wee.... yala yala... arthur, esther and victoria, Cheh Cheh loves you HEAPSSS too! =)
my aunty, she is healthy and happy with a baby boy. but my uncle is suffering form gout. haha.. it's kinda funny looking at him skipping around the house, cause his leg is pain. as a MLM AMBASSADOR, it will not be decent for him to go to a clinic... what a way... lucky he don't need to travel at this moment. so now he's taking tonns to vitamins from the you-know-what-multi-level-marketing-company, and he is repressing hard enough from having meat as part of his essential... oh, he just love meats and soy... haha.... love you too...

my grannies... grandpa has not been feeling well since stroke. now he is having some kind of lump in his stomach. he has tough time swallowing so now what he eats is only porridge. he has not been thinking positively (i can understand that, cause if anything bad happens to me, i'll end my life as i never believes in miracle. there should only be life and death and nothing else.). my grandma is quite worried about him as well so most of her time will be taking care of my grandpa and doing nothing much. humans do suffer a lot when we aged huh?

back to me... life has been great, i think... with my college friends, with my family, with my beloved cousins, oh ya, not forgetting my bud who will be leaving for Singapore... =) though i am broke, yet i am still enjoying spending money in food and presents. i bought a lot a lot of cards, without any reasons. the cards are so meaningful and nice and i think that they are worth buying and hence i grabbed as many as possible. ah... it's so irresistable. but of course i got some nagging from mom for spending SOOOO MUCH on something USELESS, yet i am still happy, cause the quotes on the cards are really meaningful, so there are slight reduction of my 99.1%. haha...

My conscience: HAIH.. NO MEDICINE CAN CURE YOU LE STEPH...
Steph: weeeee.....