for him

sean...

i knew that i've hurt you so deep.
i knew that i've made things seem so complicated.
i knew that i was not being understanding.
i knew that i was being sarcastic.
i knew...
you don't know what you want,
so do i.
you don't know what can please me,
so do i.

i beg for freedom from all this.
i beg for everything that was not nice to be diminished.
i beg for your forgiveness for all the things that i've done.
i beg for your success in the future, without dwelling in the past.

don't look for me.
don't write to me.
i wish to be a lone ranger.
i don't wish to do any harm to anyone again.
i wish...
to be myself again...