stop and think

i just wrote an email to my buddy. really missing him heaps, and i hope that he understands the content of my letter.

i am really tired now. the fact that i have not enough sleep due to the medicine i took, it's making me a lil drowsy. i am not sleepy actually, but just feeling tired, real tired.

had my lunch with friends. had my medicine. had a great laugh. had a sickening planning of holiday vacation.

18th august. what would happen. i guess that's the nature of woman, that we tend to expect something rather than wait for the surprise to come. what could happen? a party? a gift? an outing? or only a time spent at home. i don't wish to expect, cause it's tired. so stop thinking...

i am really not feeling good, emotionally and physically. whay is it that i am suffering from sleep deprivation nowadays? stress? pressure? or is it the fact that i am thinking too much? or because i need to constantly think of ways to entertain both parties???? arghh... i am just too tired...